I have many fears – dogs, snakes, spiders, small spaces, the list goes on. Today I wanted to share my blogging fears with you all. Now, I’ve been blogging for almost a year and I’m loving it but there are still some things that scare me about blogging so I’ve decided to share those blogging fears with you in the hope that someone reading this will be able to help me overcome my fears by offering some advice or help. So, let’s get straight to it.
This is my biggest fear. Being discovered. Nobody in my family knows about my blog and only a handful of my friends know. Just the ones that follow me on Twitter. I don’t want my family to know because I don’t want them to take the mick out of me like they usually do about the things I love like my ‘rubbish tv shows’. The taking the mick doesn’t bother me when it comes to the shows I watch because I don’t make the shows. It would bother me if they took the mick out of my blog because it’s mine. It’s what I spend most of my time doing.
It is difficult not having them know about it because I can’t celebrate my achievements with them and/or I have to lie. For my birthday, my lovely friend L.J Surrage sent me a copy of her book The Princess Mutiny and I could only half tell the truth to my mam which is ‘my friend from Twitter sent it to me’ and I had to leave the part out that we met when L.J asked me to review the book a few months earlier. Another thing that happened recently is that I got sent a huge package of goodies to try (all will be revealed soon) and I had to hide the box in my room so that I wouldn’t get questioned about it.
Another reason I can’t tell my family is that I’m not very open with them about things like my mental health and how I’m feeling so if they knew about my blog and I decided to write about my mental health, they would know how I’m feeling then get worried and question me about things I don’t want to talk to them about. You’d think them not knowing about my blog would let me be open and honest with you guys but the thought of them finding my blog one day is always in the back of my mind so I don’t always write the things I want to write and I sometimes hold back with my writing but it’s something I really want to work on. I don’t want to let fear hold me back.
I do hope that if/when I finally tell them about my blog that they’re not angry at me for not telling them for so long and they’re understanding and supportive of me. I’m sure it will be fine because they’ve never not supported me in anything so I don’t really know why I’m afraid of telling them.
My next blogging fear is making money which will probably sound odd to most of you.
I’m currently unemployed and have been since January so it would be really nice if I could make a bit of money off the blog I work so hard on. The problem is I’m really nervous about the whole self-employment/tax thing. I don’t understand how to register as self-employed or what happens if I get a job because I won’t be self-employed then so I’d have to change it to part self-employed, it’s just a nightmare for me! As I’ve mentioned, nobody in my life really knows about my blog so I don’t even have anyone I could ask for help with it all. I’ve tried searching for posts or articles but I just don’t understand any of it!
Unless you’ve been living under a rock, you’ll have heard of GDPR. It’s the new data protection regulations that have just been introduced in Europe. I’ve tried extremely hard to understand it but it’s tricky because I don’t want to get in trouble for not complying. I couple of months ago I tried starting an email list but as soon as I started reading into GDPR I got scared and deleted the plugin that would send the emails and stopped any emails being sent out until I could figure it out. I really want to give the email list another try so now that GDPR has started it might be a bit easier to get help by looking at other people’s blogs and what they have written in their privacy policies and disclaimers.
I hope you enjoyed reading this post. If you did, please share it using the buttons below! If you have any blogging fears, please share them in the comments, maybe someone will be able to help you or offer some advice. Also, if you have any words of wisdom for me and my blogging fears, I’d love to hear them!
Thanks for reading, Em xo